I was 10 years old the first time I connected sound to rebellion and self-actualization. I stole my brother’s The Clash album out of his room and turned my mixer to 11. What came out of the speakers hit hard, nearly knocking the wind out of me. Never had I heard such speed and distortion. I was alone in my room but I instinctively jumped up to see if anyone else was hearing what I was. Of course they weren’t, the only others in the house were violently arguing upstairs, as they would for years. At that age I was just starting to form a foundation of opposition to a lot of my surroundings—my family, my city, my friends—and struggling to understand why I felt different. Hearing this song, its affect was instantly translated into a sort of understanding, a new knowledge of self, of anger, of determination. The unorthodox rhythm and speed made me move in new ways. I became aware of my ability to create new movement, without structure, without a need for understanding why. There was a comfort in having a certain type of sound speak to you. And then to have a burning desire to hear more. If a sound can move you in new ways, maybe I can think in new ways. Maybe there is a way to create space for your own thoughts and desires. To create a belief structure that is not dictated by what you're told, but rather what you feel.
How can sound embody action?
What does action look like?
Why do I crave this action?
PUNK BODY∞PUNK FEELINGS
A large part of my artistic practice is informed by my formative years growing up in the DIY punk community. I draw a relationship between the messiness and fluidity that characterize my own queerness and its constant in-process construction of identity. In this, oppositional notions of success and failure are broken down, and a kaleidoscopic understanding of identity is possible. My work aims to contribute to the imaging of that kaleidoscopic space, where the borders of normativity and binary systems are tested, and bodily deviations from the social can render the capability of a more radical, present future.
This is an evolving investigation into how my experiences in DIY punk culture have influenced the way I move through the world. It is part of an ever-expanding body of research that informs my artistic practice, as well as my ability to understand myself, heal, and continually adapt to life under late capitalism. I am interested in this as one of many ways of thinking about being, mentally and physically, not bound or contained. We are unfinish(ed/able) subjects, whose transgressions and contradictions can create a messiness, putting us in a constant state of becoming. It is a way of thinking that is solidly rooted in imagination, speculation, and the belief that anything is possible. Here, I use some examples from early iconic punk moments, their intersection with queer theory, and in relation to performance: onstage, in cinema and in daily life. I use this as a method for self-actualization that helps me to understand the formation of my own identities, and as a way of interpreting my own artistic practice—of which some examples are included here. It is meant to be non-linear. We do not follow linearity. It is by no means comprehensive, accurate, or complete. Punk defies categorization. Therefore, it is an attempt to categorize the uncategorizable, which is both hopelessly punk, and a deathblow. So let it be a practice in letting nostalgia wave over me, and for a short time, it’s all right.
“To those who will say that I can't have been a real or true punk, let me reply in the words of Geoff, there is no such thing as punk, and therefore no basis for the distinction between real and pretend. Punk is what you make it.”
To be punk is to be a multiplicity. It's a belief in the self and a belief in collectivity. It can be adorned in leather, studs, dyed hair, nose rings, hard and sharp. But it can also be lycra, platforms, soft & billowy. It can be aggressive, loud and fast, but it can also be passive, slow, quiet—anything it fucking wants. It is not just a fleshy sack that is to be maintained and kept alive, it sneers at a cartesian binary. It is everything that comes with that sack; our fears, thoughts and desires. Utilizing all forms of resistance and liberation, it pursues a life of generative refusal. Dancing around utopic and dystopic, it is where fuck you means why not.
Which brings us to 1976. The Sex Pistols, a punk rock band from London, were being interviewed on live television when guitarist Steve Jones said the word fuck, sparking national outrage that went all the way to parliament. It wasn't the word that Steve Jones said but what it represented. Things that were traditionally seen as indecent and grotesque were being brought out in the open.
Punk started as a reaction to values of modernism. A place populated by different kinds of renegades: new immigrants, queers, women, and social misfits. It was permeated with new attitudes of skepticism, irony, or rejection toward the metanarratives and ideologies of modernism. Initially, punk was a response of extreme disillusionment with systems of authority that developed in the aftermath of the failure and disappointments around 1968, which saw uprisings led by leftist groups, anarchists, surrealists and Marxists-students in Paris, Mexico City, Rome and many other cities across the world.
They demanded, among many things, a more participatory, grassroots democracy, and decentralization of political and economic powers. One of the slogans that came out of these movements was Be realistic: Demand the impossible! So punk! What followed was a reactionary state crackdown that redirected the political scope towards neoliberal policies, and punk developed directly in relation to this political shift. Where success and perfection was the ultimate individualistic goal of neoliberalism, collectivity, self-expression and a refusal of perfection was the goal of the punk. It made it a point to bring repression out into the open through transgression and deliberate attacks on neoliberal values.
Led by the aesthetic and acoustic distortions of punk rock, which values the amateur and sloppy play as form of success, punk became a symbol of opposition and an assertion of power. It wears the messy as a badge of honor, and created a form of resistance against culturally agreed value and taste. Embracing aesthetic and behavioral fluidity, gender identity/presentation and sexuality become abstract from a normative understanding. This all blurs into a beautiful mess that I refer to as a punk∞body (miniscule intended). For our purposes, ∞ represents the acceptance of the limiting nature of language and acts as a visualization of the constantly shifting link between these two insufficient words. It also signifies an understanding of the infinitely unorientable and speculative nature of the ideas held within them.
In Performance Theatre and the Poetics of Failure, Sara Jane Bailes notes that performance of the body in society is a form of specialized labor, where failure of that body to perform as expected can become political critique. She cites an example where cultural critic Walter Benjamin experiences an error of presentation in a production of the tragedy Le Cid. In it, the actor playing the king is wearing a crooked crown. This moment of rupture has an alienation effect on the audience, inducing both familiarity and unfamiliarity at the same time.
The audience is simultaneously aware of the labor of the performer, while also being aware of whether or not they are “good” at it. This rupture creates the possibility of showing more than one thing at a time, revealing more than itself as it illuminates the duplicitous systems entangled in its operations.
In John Waters’ 1974 film Female Trouble, the main character, Divine, wants to get the electric chair so badly. To her it’s like getting the academy award for her profession. She continuously and deliberately fails to perform her role as a good daughter, a devoted wife, a loving mother, or more generally a proper lady. Her struggles and the way she copes with them are both familiar and exaggeratingly unfamiliar. The space in between these familiarities is where a punk∞body lives. It fails to perform its societal given task properly, whether that be the hegemonic fantasy of a healthy lifestyle, a nuclear family, proper hygiene, financial success, etc.
Stuart Hall’s and Jack Halberstam’s concept of low theory can be used as a way of understanding a punk∞body as an error of presentation. They see low theory as a way of embracing failure as a counterintuitive form of resistance, a way to inhabit the refusal of mastery and success. It entails a willingness to fail and to lose one's way, in order to pursue difficult questions about complicity.
This allows us also to think about a punk∞body in relation to failure. It creates a disorganized path between seemingly opposing styles that have been set up to determine value, desire, and etiquette. It doesn't just try to fail, but it sets a new way of understanding failure as a form of success. It is messy in that it blurs the lines of merit to a point where evaluation is infinite or impossible. Punk gives us an example of how failure is an intentional practice, or as social theorist Jacques Attali calls it, a “formidable subversion,” a breakdown of perfection as a value, something that ensures security and reliability.
Theorist Roland Barthes' ideas of the body as a topos, strange & unfamiliar, is relevant to a punk’s view of their own body. To Barthes, the body is “of a ceaselessly unforeseen originality, that resists description, definition and language.” We are our bodies, and yet always our bodies inevitably are unfamiliar to ourselves.
A punk∞body acknowledges its own slippage. It accepts messiness as an inherent part of the act of performing oneself. Through its insistence that the body is not a temple, it seeks out failure.
This can occur through a rejection of a normative healthy lifestyle, where habits such as alcoholism and drug abuse indirectly become a form of social critique and deviance. It is by no means a requisite of a punk∞body, but is often a part of the culture. I am not interested in a sort of spectacle gaze of addiction, and as someone who suffers from addiction, I am not interested in glorifying it. But in its behavior it represents a way of moving through the world that is not cohesive. It is a refusal to secure a certain kind of functionality that capitalism requires of the body, in order to support productive forms of labor.
Of course, the daily realities of addiction are conducive to a lessening of understanding and an incoherent refusal over the long run. And yes, it disrupts neoliberalism’s personal success story, but it is also incredibly damaging. If your sense of power comes from a belief in self-determination, addiction can throw a pretty muddy light on that. But disregarding its existence and refusing to understand its significance would be a deliberately utopic form of failure.
THIS BODY IS A DIRTY BODY
John Waters once stated that if he could get the audience to throw up while watching one of his films it was a sign of success. In this is a rejection of the body as pure and stable, a rejection of a body that has reached or can reach perfection. A punk∞body utilizes its bodily functions in its performance.
For Iggy Pop, it was a way of telling his audience that he is not an idol. For him, throwing up onstage was simply a way of reminding the audience that we all share this body full of juices—and why not show how it functions in a celebratory manner, with a little bit of style? As a deliberate fight against the embodiment of perfection, it works “aggressively against containment of bodily fluids and the integrity of the individual and the social body, its excess works against the perceived harmony of good form”. It is an acceptance of bodily functions, which denies the existence of a perfect body, allowing every body to fail. It is a way of politically weaponizing these functions. Anti-containment of bodily fluids is a political act of disregard for the societal containment of the body.
Singer Poly Styrene upended the notion that cleanliness is next to godliness by using satire in her band X-Ray Spex's song “Germfree Adolescents”. Poly calls for an embracement of dirtiness as a refusal of society’s standard notions of beauty and cleanliness. She saw a punk∞body as a filthy body. And through the behavior of an anti-expectation of normativity, everything is possible. So being dirty, literally dirty, is a way of opening possibilities.
Punks were trying to figure out a way of saying to larger society that they wouldn’t be held by anyone’s standards of measurement: they aren’t going to measure at all. Greil Marcus describes the experience of punk's desire to change the world as a desire that
“begins with the demand to live not as an object but as a subject of history—to live as if something is actually depending on one's actions, and that demand opens onto a free street . Damning God and the state…[it] made it possible to experience those things as if they were not natural facts but ideological constructs: things that had been made and therefore could be altered, or done away with altogether.”
At its very core, a punk∞body is in constant flux. In its flux over the years, it has taken on more aesthetics, behaviors, politics and forms. There is a mistake in doing exactly what I have done with this writing: naming the thing, thus giving it a set structure and containing it. But this is not to take away from the initial cultural impact punk had and, to this day, maintains. It created a new language of dissent that put such things as purposelessness and disposability into the spotlight, and made them a threat to the hegemonic standards of the time. It gave people new ways to think and express their desires and needs.
All I've done here is taken it from a mere moment and tried to slow it down. But it's flying at a million miles an hour, and in its constant state of motion it is in a constant state of expectation…of breaking thru. It will never stop because the untamable can never be caught.
Christopher Corey Allen is a transdisciplinary artist whose work is concerned with disruptive narratives, radical perspectives, and the speculative performance of self. Through a punk and queer theory optics they utilize aesthetic tools such as fixation, repetition, shapeshifting and fetishization to probe the borders of normativity and binary modalities. CCA received their MFA from Cranbrook Academy of Art. In 2018 they recieved a Tobey Devin Lewis Fellowship. They have been the recipient of numerous awards including the New Beginnings Award from Mercedes-Benz Financial Services in 2018, the Lenore G. Tawney Foundation award in 2017, and an Artist Initiative Grant in 2015. Exhibitions and performances include Montage Halle in Berlin, Germany, Walker Art Center in Minneapolis, MN, Roman Susan Gallery in Chicago, IL, and Detroit Artists Market in Detroit, MI. Residencies include Künstlerhaus Fehrbelliner in Berlin, Germay, Mass MoCA in North Adams, MA, Frans Masereel Center in Kasterlee, Belgium, The White Page in Minneapolis, MN and Pino in Florence, Italy. Additionally, CCA was a co-facilitator of SpaceSpaceSpace in Detroit, a conference centering around alternative pedagogy, self-organizing, and exploring ways of disrupting productions of knowledge within academic structures.
This article is part of the series by guest editor Kristin Van Loon.
 Mikhail M. Bakhtin, Rabelais and His World, (Bloomington , Indiana: Indiana University Press , 2009).
Tavia Nyong’o. “Do You Want Queer Theory (or Do You Want the Truth)? Intersections of Punk and Queer in the 1970’s.” Radical History 10 (Winter 2008): 103. A moment “in which queer and punk affect were continuously and productively confused and conflated by both outsiders and participants.”
 David Muggleton, Inside Subculture : The Post Modern Meaning of Subculture, (Oxford: Berg Publishers, 2000), 2.
 Jack Halberstam, “Go Gaga: Anarchy, Chaos, and the Wild”, Social Text 31, no. 3 (Fall 2012): 2.
Sara Jane Bailes, Performance Theatre and the Poetics of Failure: Forced Entertainment, Goat Island, Elevator Repair Service (London and New York: Routledge, 2011): 32.
John Waters and Divine, interview by David Letterman, Late Night Show, March 18, 1982, video, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AIPF8mk1a4Q&t=6m22s.
 Jack Halberstam, The Queer Art of Failure (Durham: Duke University Press, 2011).
Jacques Attali, NOISE: The Political Economy of Music (Minneapolis: University of Minnesota Press, 1985): 5.
 Roland Barthes, A Lover’s Discourse: Fragments, trans. Richard Howard (New York: Farrar, Straus and Giroux, 1978).
 A conflicting but important narrative to this is the emergence of straight edge culture in the early 1980s hardcore scenes, which involves an often militant refrain from using drugs or alcohol. As addiction is an overuse, straight edge is a refusal of use, a refusal of participation in the dominant ideals of absolute freedom and choice.
 Waters, interview.
 Bailes, 54.
 Greil Marcus, Lipstick Traces: A Secret History Of The Twentieth Century (Cambridge: Harvard University Press, 1989).
 Bailes, 51.
[i] Born Slippy, or Born Slippyage, or Born Slippery. 2018. Single channel video, loop, color, sound. 1 minute 35 seconds.
Screenshot image of Christopher Corey Allen’s video work entitled Born Slippy, or Born Slippyage, or Born Slippery. The screenshot shows numerous light blue silhouetted dancing figures on a purple background. The figures and background are composed of repeating tessellation patterns. Some figures are wearing black leather jackets and other figures are only wearing gloves with gold fringe on the wrists. The aspect ratio of the image is Ultra-Widescreen 32:9.
[ii] Artist rendering of a newspaper clipping rendered in halftone dot pattern on a lavender background with a grainy photocopier texture. The right hand side of the image shows an article titled Filth And The Fury! Uproar as Viewer Jams Phones. To the left of the title is an image of the punk rock band the Sex Pistols, showing four young punks grinning and pointing at the camera lens. Below the unintelligible article text is another headline titled Who Are These Punks? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LtHPhVhJ7Rs&t=1m24s
[iii] Crass, Feeding of the 5000.
Artist rendering. An image of a person in the distance carrying a large flag that reads “CRASS” in large letters. Inset on the band’s logo shows two snake heads circling a cross. The person is walking on a field of dirt with a cloudy sky in the background. Black fills in the rest of the frame behind the person, field, and sky. The image is rendered in a halftone dot pattern on a lavender background with a grainy photocopier texture.
[iv] Female Trouble, Written and Directed by John Waters.
Artist rendering. Two frames rendered in a halftone dot pattern on a lavender background with a grainy photocopier texture. The frame on the left shows a person with neck-length black hair tied up. They are wearing a nightgown and furry slippers, smashing christmas presents with their feet in front of two people in pajamas, who are sitting on a couch with looks of shock on their faces. A christmas tree is in the background. The frame on the right shows the same person from the left frame looking off in the distance with a look of annoyance, wearing a ruffle belly top and sequin pants. To their left is a seemingly younger person with curly hair in a child-like dress looking at a large cage; we can only see the back of their head.
[v] why’d you do that? (cuz) i’m x-head! -Decline of Western Civilization
Artist rendering. Two frames rendered in a halftone dot pattern on a lavender background with a grainy photocopier texture. The frame on the left shows a young person in a black leather jacket with a thick chain necklace smiling at the camera and sitting above a bare lightbulb hanging from a cord. The frame on the right shows the same person leaning forward showing the top of their head, which has a large X shaved into it.
[vi] Dark and Long. 2019. Handcut inkjet print, stainless steel chain, stainless steel rings, metal grommets, steel shanks.
Two frames showing images of Christopher Corey Allen’s work from their series Speculative Camouflages. In the left frame is a full frontal view of an inkjet print hanging on a white wall. The print shows a brownish red and pink cream-colored tessellating pattern made up of a repeating messy shape that appears hairy and body-like, but is otherwise indecipherable. Hanging from the print are multiple silver chains hooked through grommets that connect below the print at a metal ring. In the right frame is a detail image of the same artwork from the left frame. It shows two pieces of silver chain extending from a metal ring that is piercing through two grommet holes. The same pattern is evident but one can see more closely what appear to be hairs and some skin textures.
[vii] tell me how is it that you’re always getting hurt? well first I did it on purpose. yeah? to keep from being bored.
Artist rendering. Two frames rendered in a halftone dot pattern on a lavender background with a grainy photocopier texture. The frame on the left is of a young person sitting at a table with black hair, spiky bracelets on their wrists, in a white t-shirt with the sleeves rolled up, revealing an indecipherable tattoo. Behind the person is a poster with a newspaper headline reading Sid Vicious Faces Murder Court, Evening News. In the right frame is the same young person with just their arms neck and head visible, holding a 40 oz. beer up to their mouth with a black background behind them.
[viii] gimme some lovin’. 2017. single channel video projection, color, sound, loop, polyurethane, fresh beet juice, neon light, red gel, aluminum, 4 minutes
Screenshot image of Christopher Corey Allen’s video work entitled gimme some lovin’. The image is made up of two frames. In the left frame is either a yellow shape resembling a head or a head wrapped in yellow cloth with just the mouth showing. The figure has a jar with red liquid in it held up to their mouth by a hand that rises from the bottom of the frame. Covering the background is an image of a frothy red substance. In the frame on the right is the same yellow figure with its mouth open showing its red tongue. Around the mouth is a red liquid stain. Covering the background is the same frothy red substance from the left frame.
[ix] i vomitted, i was ill. im not sorry i was ill. everyone gets ill sometimes, and uh, i was ill one evening, and as i felt that i was going to vomit anyway i decided i may as well do it with some style…… so it did it something like this….. ughhhhhhhh do you understand what i am saying sir? - iggy pop
Artist rendering. The image consists of four frames rendered in a halftone dot pattern on a lavender background with a grainy photocopier texture. The frame on the farthest left is of a young person in a suit coat and pants with a dark brown mullet haircut. A chair and stage curtains are in the background. They are wearing heavy eyeshadow makeup, leaning slightly on their right leg. In the next frame is the same person, this time having moved a little bit to their left and now looking down at the ground, head tilted. In the next frame the same person is now slightly hunched over to their right with their left arm raised out a little. In the last frame on the far right the same person is now hunched over with their mouth open and face facing the ground. Their left hand is in a balled up fist reaching up towards their mouth and their right hand is clutched to their side. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=78S0yrMLfTU&t=1m13s
[x] poly styrene, x-ray spex.
Artist rendering. The image is rendered in a halftone dot pattern on a lavender background with a grainy photocopier texture. It shows a repeating image (six times) of a young person trapped in a clear elongated glass test tube. The person has short black hair and is wearing a dress with a thick collar; large metallic buttons go down the middle left side, and there is a thick belt across the waist. The dress goes down to their thighs and on their legs they are wearing shiny metallic leggings and clogs on their feet. Their left hand is raised up by their face, palm open and thumb and forefingers extended. Their right hand is straight down by their waist, palm on their hip and fingers extended.
[xi] you can’t just break on thru once and think well i’ve made it, i’ve broke thru. there’s a million membranes to break thru. Under the right frame: we went to the moon big deal, we went to mars big deal, we keep movin and movin and movin and movin -Patti Smith
Artist rendering. The image is rendered in a halftone dot pattern on a lavender background with a grainy photocopier texture. There are two frames. In the left frame is a young person with long brown hair wearing a t-shirt with an indecipherable logo on it. Their mouth is open like they are speaking and their right hand is raised up by their chin with their pointer finger extended slightly. In the right frame is the same person in almost the same position, but they appear slightly larger in the frame and their hand and pointer finger are now extended outward in front of them.