I am attracted to the complex emotions found in human beings, and to how those emotions can guide us to a type of awareness and understanding. I never plan my paintings. Instead, I create instinctively and let the painting emerge in an organic way. I try to lose myself in the brush strokes, the glazing, and the stencils I often use. I am mindful of each brush stroke and how it touches the canvas. However, I cannot achieve this on my own. Music is a significant component in the process of painting. Listening to music not only helps me relax but also helps guide each brush stroke as I respond to the rhythm of the music. It is this mix of instinct and music that helps me complete a painting and capture the strong emotional moments that are revealed in my paintings. I try not to think so much about the future or the past while I work. Instead, I focus on the current moment and the process, while remaining conscious of the technical and formal aspects of each painting.
My artwork, in its final form, usually examines and explores a form of narrative. When viewed as a whole, my paintings present a coherent and expressive series of events and stages in life. My work explores the philosophical aspects of human emotions that frequently include suffering, freedom, and the human grief process without sentimentalizing it. In the center of all of this is the human being, which in its emotional complexity provokes awareness and understanding to the perceiving viewer. To present complexity and human emotions I paint the human body, and seek to capture a moment when one is in a state of emotion. I intensify colors and use dramatic poses on the figure in contrast with a darker background. I wait for the painting to emerge, and once it does I try to have my painting empathize with the human in a way that narrates this feeling.
In 2013 I had a solo exhibition where I presented a grief process. I created 7 paintings; each painting was a representation of what that stage would look like. However my main goal was to understand the grief process, I was trying to understand whether there is a type of awareness from all the suffering and chaos that comes with losing someone or something. My final painting (representing the last stage, the stage of awareness) was coincidently different than my other 6 paintings, not only in size, but also in design, posture, and to some extent color. This final painting left me with a better understanding of grief and a love for it, but it also left me with many questions. I began to wonder what other emotional stages I could create. What would they look like, and feel like?
Lately I have gone through some emotional distress which got me thinking on forgiveness. Why do we forgive? And how do we forgive? Forgiveness is quite complex, it asks of us to act with kindness and compassion in moments of anger and suffering. Forgiveness is a part of being human; to forgive and act with compassion is extraordinarily human. The rest will soon come and I shall embark on a new journey of and on forgiveness.