Molly Roth

Innocence and Panic

Innocence and Panic
Innocence and Panic

velvet ribbon 2008

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Statement

If I were to ask you to stay, I would embarrass myself. I want to, I always want to, but it means that I need you, that I need something, and I want to be something that needs nothing. I want to be solid, unflappable, impermeable, able to withstand all forms of loss with a stoic grace because that is the ideal. But I can’t. I want to beg and sob and pound my fists and refuse and make sounds like an animal. But I can’t do that either. I know about the inevitability of transience. I want to honor it, quietly, with effort, while I shake on the inside with everyone else.